Just stop the rain from falling down
Come on and help me mend my broken heart
And let me live again"
-BeeGees
There are 2 recordings of this song that I enjoy. The first is the original by the BeeGees. Not only has this song helped me through hard times, but it reminds me of being a child listening to music with my mother. The second, is by Al Green. As a Memphis native, I can't help but listen to his music. Though I love both versions, sometimes, such as this, I prefer Al Green's. It's sad, drawn out, and full of pain. I can feel my heart breaking along with his. After Joey and I broke up this summer, I listened to this song over and over. Losing him made me feel like I would never LIVE again, like I could never pick myself up, and move on with my life. Everyday I would sit in my room and wonder why God would put Joey in my life if he was only going to cause me pain. After months and several prayers later, I think I've found the answers. Joey came into my life to show me what love actually is. He showed me how desperate I was to get married. Joey also helped me learn to stand on my feet. As mentioned in the last post, I can finally stand on my own 2 feet without feeling I'll need someone to constantly hold my hand. But the best lesson Joey gave me was my new-found faith in God. I've never been much of a church person, but that's for a later post. However, I just love the Lord and the message in which He stands. I may not be the nicest person, but I believe in being just and fair. I believe in being a good person, a true person, and in treating others as human beings. The Lord gave me a new compassion for life, something I thought I'd lost a long time ago. I feel renewed and re-awakened. I feel invincible, my heart is open for love, but most importantly, I have come to accept myself. The Lord is giving me direction, and though I have digressed and fallen off His trail many times, I think I have finally begun to fully believe and understand that I should leave my life in His hands. The Lord knows what is best for me.
There will probably be many more posts about Joey, my life, and my family. But I'm not quite ready to tap into Pandora's emotional box just yet.
#9 on my Thankful list: The Lord's Salvation, with which I would be nothing. I don't really like Christian "symbols," as I feel you can find the Lord in Nature and everything He created.
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